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The Sleep of Reason Produces Monsters
May. 10th, 2009
03:34 pm - Quote of the day
"when I was your age we had to make our own porn"
-dad, followed with a sadistic laugh
Apr. 15th, 2009
11:34 am - finally
facebook has an annoying layout. Kind of makes you feel depressed.
Anyways, if i haven’t said it already..
Seeing Nurse with Wound live is kind of like having sex on ecstasy, meaning once you do it nothing ever compares. that’s all i have to say about that.
on another note
San Louis Obispo and all the small towns in between was a relief. once i get a taste of freedom im never satisfied going back to "the routine"
yesterday was exciting. First i paced around the kitchen for a good 10 minutes, extremely eager. im sure i had the look of a child waiting for the sun to rise on x-mas. Once the oven beeped i knew the fate of the rest of my afternoon. yes, i plopped myself in front of a tv and ate homemade chocolate chip cookies. Aw daytime television. Nothing like watching a prostitution sting on cops, a kkk loving 15 year old on steve wilkos, and tyra banks counseling porn stars. I saved a few for the rest of the household but it didn’t stop me from eating 6 cookies. Yes that was lunch and dinner. No regrets.
Apr. 3rd, 2009
08:59 pm - talking to myself
the garden is done. it looks amazing. im happy. yay.
wtf my clock is 5 minutes ahead.
im going to go watch the office, then 30 rock
im wasting the one life i have
that is ..unless... muhaha
UPDATE: wtf? no one told me it's friday. i thought it was thursday damnit
Apr. 2nd, 2009
10:54 am - what to doooo yeah
Yesterday i was ambitious and jogged an hour with dj then went on a bike ride for an hour. The only reason i really did this is because then i wouldn't feel so bad about eating leftover Indian food from Bombay bistro. i had a weird dream last night. I must have really needed to pee or something.
On a new note, the long walks dj and I go on have really helped us bond and have possibly made us both hate the world. You would think going on a walk would refresh your mind and bring happiness blah blah blah but its only half true. Yes walking through endless suburban landscape does open your eyes it makes you think "what the fuck is this shit?" These walks don’t make me happy they make dj and i mad about the way the world is going. yeah its really cliché but we learn things from each other. He will rant about the WTO and I'll talk about how schools in California are failing (it becomes clearer when you work at a starbucks across from a high school). if anything our disgust with the world brings us to an unlikely proposition. what do we do? Flee back to Mississippi and use the land his family owns to start an anarchist commune? Way too romantic and farfetched. Do you become some tired teacher teaching elementary in hopes you can subliminally teach kids the basics of direct action and revolution? No...most likely children will only remember that you smelt like a skunk and petruli. Do we leave the usa and find somewhere else to live? Isn’t it everywhere? I can’t do cold, I won't go to Iceland. What do you do? The closest thing to god is government, and it seems we do give it divine qualities. Governments can make people disappear. I’m terrified of it all but at the same time community is necessary to survive. You need a safety net. I think this is where dj and I are stumped. Capitalism is collapsing and instead of finding a more suitable economic system (none would be best, fuck money) we try to make something work that doesn’t ever work. If the economy fails here it fails everywhere and governments feel it and people feel it and how do we get ourselves out at our weakest moment. There will obviously be more exploitation, a greater free market to fuck up shit more. I read this killer article last night about resistant groups in Central America, where they had all gone. They essentially have died down, globalization kind of swallowed up there lives. The articles main argument though was that resistance and revolution still lingered in people it was just subdued. Mainly people were afraid of the government.
Mar. 25th, 2009
01:50 pm - so many things to do
1. accept my UCD admission
2. pamper 2 nice dogs for hella bank
3. make a res. for an sf hotel tonight
4. go to gam tomorrow to see nurse with wound
5. make res for a campisite near big sur
6. let alex know exact days and times when dj and i will be in slo
7. find a place to crash in la
8. buy tickets to murderfest (though ive seen 10 of the bands playing at gilman before)
9. start to clean room and pack things up.
10. get ready to go to florida for a crazy sicilian reunion on my mothers side, its my grandma's 90th birthday
11. call back the curator for docent work
Mar. 16th, 2009
10:28 pm - yeah
It's not my fault that I hurt someones feelings. I don't even know if I really did, but you would think by now they could drop this act. Sorry? Atleast Iv'e made an effort to be nice. I think in return they could say hi in the same room I'm in with only like 5 other people. For once I think Iv'e been the better person. Normally its the other way around. I just think it's all really stupid and unfortunate because I'ts not like I don't care about people. I can give up easily but didn't..well I will now. I've noticed I have this crazy ability to erase people from my life- take Adri for example. Adri was my best friend for 7 years. Then we both changed and I didn't want to be her friend and I never talked to her again. In fact I forgot about her. I never thought about my best friend again. Maybe its harder to forget about people that never hurt you.
Mar. 12th, 2009
03:02 pm - a lot of nothing
still getting everything ready for the summer. dj and i have been searching for new hiking boots, ultralight packs and a good trail. we still havent decided on what part of the pacific crest trail we will hike, but I'm super excited!
Mar. 3rd, 2009
12:51 am - early
i shouldn't be allowed to drive. Tomorrow dj has another show. I will probably have a lot of fun. I am reading a good book.
Feb. 17th, 2009
01:26 pm - conversations with nick
Nick- gina! I fucking rock at history.
Gina- Oh yeah? Why do you say that?
Nick- I got an A on my Histoy test and I didn't even read the book!
Gina- was it like a 10 question quiz?
Nick- Noo it was out of 100!
Gina- bullshit let me see this.
Nick- ok *rumages through backpack*
Nick-see!
Gina- this says 84..
Nick- its graded on a curve!
*facepalm*
Feb. 9th, 2009
01:01 am - conversation of the day
*at the dinner table*
Gina- "Dj's cultural anthropology teacher has a PhD."
Nick interrupts- "That's nothing my english teacher has a doctorate! "
......................................
DEAD SILENCE
Jan. 31st, 2009
02:53 am - negative
Honestly some anorexic people deserve to starve to death.
these are the kinds of things that pop into my head after coming off my birth control (not by choice). hopefully my moods will change by Tuesday. I have new health insurance that doesn't cover ANYTHING, not even generics.Dj and i have gone to the dog park everyday with his dogs. I have worked everyday this week. I've been really upset about EVERYTHING in general. maybe that car accident hit my head the wrong way. I'm feeling ultra viscous.
Jan. 21st, 2009
11:44 am - Dont be hatin
so my new years resolution wasn't really about losing weight but i did vow to walk more...and because ive been walking I am nooow *drum roll please* waist-24in hips-30in
yay!
I was 26-33in but not anymore.
so here are my helpful hints
-send your boy toy to costa rica so you wont eat what he eats lol
-walk the fucking dog
-eat whatever the fuck you want because you burned a good 600 calories on that 2 1/2 hour walk.
-buy a pedometer, trust me, you start obsessing over it
-I ate all the chocolate i wanted, but limited myself to one piece of cheese a day instead of as many as i usually do along with all the meals i eat (i have a closet cheese obsession, yes i eat slices of cheese randomly threw out the day Iv'e done this since i was 4),
Jan. 16th, 2009
11:16 pm - Article of the day
Like most of my generation we all remember the Clinton administration whether it be because of those epic SNL skits or your parents wanting a president impeached. I remember him mainly because he played the saxophone and I liked his wife Hillary. None of that political stuff really settled in till later. When your 8 years old you don't normally write to your president in regards to why he got a BJ from another woman. Those issues didn't concern me, because when your young your world is about cartoons, homework and cleaning up after your pet. So when I wrote to Bill it was during christmas, and I'd tell him about what I wanted for christmas and I'd wish his family the best. It fascinates me to read what children think and want from their president. Their questions are innocent and reflect what concerns them. I thought these letters to Obama were hilarious and adorable but most of all they were honest.
http://www.nytimes.com/2009/01/16/opinio
Jan. 15th, 2009
05:59 pm - conversation of the week
"I love old poo"
"I love Russian poo (30 second pause) bear.."
Jan. 10th, 2009
11:46 am - My shit list
1. Fuck the DMV
2. Fuck natural disasters
3. Fuck expiration dates
4. Fuck going places with no purpose. its not gonna get any better going somewhere else.
5. Fuck tamales
6. Fuck saturday mornings God i hate them so much.
this list is to be continued
Jan. 3rd, 2009
11:34 pm - complaining
Why does dj have to be in Costa Rica for TEN days?! That's way to long. I miss him so much. I'm going to get fat. All I did today was lay around and read and eat. I wore a pedometer and discovered I walked 6 miles while working! So I figured I didn't need to walk dj's dogs even though it was gorgeous out. I saw the movie Milk yesterday. I cried like a baby in the theaters, what an amazing movie, and what an amazing person Harvey Milk was. The casting was perfect and James Franco was incredibly hot, most likely the hottest person Sean Penn has ever kissed lol. Ever since watching the movie my friend Rachel wants to do more about the whole gay marriage thing. I’ve gone to a dozen protests signed petitions but Rachel wants me to collect signatures for this open letter addressed to Obama from Americans who support gay rights. It basically tells Obama -look you’re a total dick for picking Rick Warren as one of your speakers during the inauguration. Now the LGBTQ community is paranoid that you are not going to go through with your promises. So just in case you forgot here is a list of all the things you have promised during your presidency in regards to gay rights. Oh and here is one million signatures from your voters who are counting on you to have some balls, k thanks. lol so I think I'm collecting signatures tomorrow.
Jan. 2nd, 2009
01:25 pm - Because everyone else is doing it
my resolutions:
1. Maybe loose 5 more pounds, though I'm sort of content with my weight now. Maybe just stop eating cheese/grilled cheeses from in-n-out lol. and having chocolate everyday. No sweets! (until valentines)
2. Care less, why should i let a crappy job dictate my emotions? I'm done being a "disposable being," I want a job that values me.
3. volunteer, dj and i both want to do more of this
4. put myself "out there," half of getting anywhere is just showing up.
5. travel and i mean airplane kind of travel. i need to go somewhere far
6. read more. with this semester off there shouldn't be any reason why i can't read more. I should read a book a week. I've almost finished one, by the time dj is back i should be done damnit!
Dec. 23rd, 2008
Dec. 10th, 2008
Dec. 9th, 2008
04:24 pm - The power of z Gina
Sometimes I feel like my life isn't real. Every morning I wake up and envision my future. Everyday I get closer to that image, but I can;t help but wonder about the present. Yes I know what the future holds, I feel like I have already lived that life, its just a reoccurring dream to me, but I'm concered about NOW. What the fuck am I doing right now? Nothing thats really worth living for. All I do is eat, work, sleep. I need more, I want to travel I want to do something that can't dissapoint me. I feel like where ever I go and whatever I do is never enough, I already thought about it and hyped it to death in my mind.
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